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Mercy
Time
by
Yehoshua Metzinger
There
are two ways in which we can have contact with G-dliness. One is to experience
Divine illumination when it descends from above. The other way is to reach
G-dliness from where we are. The The month of Elul is a time of preparation
when we examine ourselves, regret our misdeeds and resolve to improve
in order to reach a level so that, on Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur, G-dly
revelation can descend to us. The month of Elul reflects the part of the
verse from Song of Songs, "Ani L'dodi" (I am for my love)
because it is during this time that we approach Divine illumination, culminating
in "V'dodi Li" (My love is for me), when we experience
G-dliness from above during Tishrei. (it should be noted that the initials
of these four Hebrew words spell "Elul"!)
"His
left hand is under my head and his right hand will embrace me," the
verses continue. Elul is a time of mercy, associated with the right hand
which embraces us. The days between Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur in Tishrei
are like the left hand under the head. The left is connected with Yira
- fear, or the awe that comes from great respect, since it is during these
"Ten Days of Teshuva" G-d is considered in His aspect as king,
and his kingship is over all worlds. The fear of G-d descends from the
highest levels so that the souls of Israel can accept the yoke of His
kingship. The fear of G-d which we experience throughout the year is not
born from within ourselves spontaneously, but is the direct result of
the quality of our acceptance G-d's kingship during these ten days. If
we accept the yoke completely, the fear of G-d is implanted in us for
the entire year.
Elul, however,
is a month characterized by chesed - kindness, the right hand that
embraces, and the nearness of G-d's presence. (Ani l'dodi). It is at this
time that the Thirteen Attributes of Mercy are revealed. If these days
are characterized by drawing G-d closer, why aren't there holidays in
Elul too and not just in Tishrei? The reason is that the revelation during
Elul is different in nature than the revelation on holidays, such as Rosh
Hashana and Yom Kippur.
The Zohar
illustrates this difference in a parable of a king approaching his palace.
Before he arrives, he passes through a field where many of his subjects
-- rich, poor, young and old -- are waiting to greet him. Everyone who
wishes to speak to the king has an opportunity, and he greets everyone
warmly. The subjects follow him until he reaches the palace. Once the
king goes inside the palace, only those considered worthy may enter, and
even then, only if they have his permission. Elul is the time when the
king is in the field greeting his subjects before he enters the palace;
it is in Elul that we can experience unique closeness to G-d's presence.
Elul is
when we concentrate on guiding our wills toward the will of G-d, at a
time G-d's mercy is extra illuminated. The divine attribute of Keil,
representing chesed, is the first of the Thirteen Attributes of Mercy.
It is the outward revelation of the Infinite Light, which is compared
to a consuming fire. Keil is like a light emerging from the fire, as there
is no division between the light and the fire itself.
This name
"Israel" is derived from the two words "Sar" (ministry)
and the divine name Keil. Keil is like one who administers and rules a
person, controlling his attributes. The G-dly spark in every soul has
as its source the aspect of Infinite Light that is above the level of
Supernal Wisdom. Just as "the son is the extension of his father's
feet", and therefore he must do the will of his father without understanding,
in the same manner as the legs follow the will of the head, so, during
this time, we concentrate on nullifying our will, guided by Keil, to the
Supreme will.
The entire
month of Elul is a time to reflect on the deeds of the preceding year.
Our actions can be like a fertile field where things are able to grow,
or, G-d forbid, they can be like a barren desert. When there are thoughts,
words and actions not directed toward the will of G-d, even if they are
permitted by the Torah, they are like a desert that cannot sustain life,
and G-d does not dwell in such a place. Every person must search his actions
and his attributes to find the spark of G-dliness which somehow became
obscured during the year, or throughout many years. When G-d created the
light and saw that the "light was good", he saw that it was
good to hide it, because the world was not ready for the intensity of
the light, which is the inner will of G-d. This light is concealed within
the soul of each Jew, like a treasure that can be found only after an
assiduous search. The spark, which is in exile, can only be found in the
place where it was lost, within ourselves. Then we can experience an individual
redemption, by releasing this spark hidden deeply within our souls.
[Excerpted
and translated from Likutei Torah of Rebbe Shneur Zalman of Chabad.]
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